Friday, January 9, 2009

Letter to Emma

I started to write a letter to Emma, but I couldn't finish it. It makes my heart ache too much. I am ready and excited to hold her in my arms, yet because I know what her coming out of me means, I am scared and nervous.

I love you Emma.

8 comments:

Holly said...

I understand how hard it is to write a letter. I would like to write one to Carleigh once we get a little closer to delivery. I know what you mean about being excited to hold her but yet being afraid. I feel the same way.

lisa moore said...

Your feelings are totally understandable. I can't begin to imagine your thoughts and feelings. Would it be any easier to maybe record what you want to say to her, and then later type it up? Not sure that would be any easier, but that is what came to my mind when I read your message. You're always in our prayers!

romanmegga said...

Psalm 34:18

Kristen said...

I can totally understand how that would be a difficult thing to do. You and your entire family (including Emma) are in my thoughts and prayers right now. I love you!

duff said...

I sorry guys.

Jennifer Doiron said...

God bless you and your family during this time. I have no idea what you are going through personally but have written letters to the babies I lost in missed micarriages and it helped alot. Good luck and I will be praying for you and little Emma!

Emily said...

((hugs)) I just found your blog and think you are a great mommy to carry and love your little girl for so long. I pray you will be able to hold her.

I will be thinking about your family on Jan15th

When my son Gabriel was stillborn the worst day was finding out he had died. His actual birth and the small amount of time we had with him was actually kind of peaceful. That room was filled with so much love.

I think your birthing plan is a great thing to do. I didn't have much chance to prepare ahead of time, but I wish we had said a family prayer while we were with him.

((hugs))
emily

Misty said...

From a mother in your exact shoes right now, I understand completely.