Unfortunately, that's not the case right now. I had another doctor's appointment today. I guess I should brag that I didn't cry at all! I choked up a little, but I was really proud of myself. But our little Emma is really struggling to grow. Going off of my uterus measurements, she is now 5 weeks behind what she should be. At 20 weeks, she was 8 days behind. At 25 weeks she was 3 weeks behind. Now at 29 weeks she is 5 weeks behind. Yes it is normal for anencephalic babies to be smaller, but not 5 weeks behind smaller.
Last night Tim and I had talked about the possibility of not inducing at 35 weeks, but waiting until 40 or even 42 weeks to give Emma more of a chance to grow. Even before I went to the doctor's today, I knew I was small. My secret hope was that I wouldn't be any more than 3 weeks behind, but it didn't surprise me when he measured me 5 weeks behind. So I immediately brought up to him the possibility of waiting longer. He told me that whatever Tim and I wanted to do was fine with him, but he didn't think that would be the best decision. He then was hesitant and told me that he didn't want to scare me, but since we were already talking about it, he should probably tell me.
He then told me that he thinks that the baby is not being nourished enough from the placenta. While Emma's heartbeat is still going strong, he thinks that she's in a stressful environment. Because of her lack of growth, he thinks her chances of dying inside of me are much greater. He suggested the possibility of even going earlier than 35 weeks. But then he once again told me that it's whatever my husband and I want to do.
So I'll go back in another two weeks. If my uterus is still 5 weeks or even further behind than that, we'll do an ultrasound to confirm that she really is that far behind. And then we'll go from there.
Thank you for your love and support. Continue to pray for Emma and most especially that, if it be the Lord's will, she can hang on for longer and that she can continue to grow.