Monday, March 16, 2009

Thinking About My Angel

I've been thinking a lot lately about Emma dying before birth. I said before that I was struggling with this, and I still am a little, but through the grace of our Father in Heaven, he is helping me to heal, draw nearer unto Him, and to understand His hands in all things.

I received new insight tonight, sadly it is because of my dear friend's loss. My heart is breaking for her and her family. But it made me realize something. I realized that I have been focusing too much on what we didn't have with Emma - a live birth.

But oh what things we did have with her!!!

I got to carry this sweet child for 8+ months. I got to make memories to last with her while she was inside of me. I got to hold her precious body, bathe her, stroke her fingers and toes, and snuggle with her. I have beautiful pictures with her that I can always look at. I got to feel the presence of a sweet, sweet Spirit in my life. I got to hold and see the body of an angel that was sent to touch our hearts and bless our home and family forever.

I can't help but be so grateful to Heavenly Father for all that He has blessed us with and everything we got to have with Emma.

10 comments:

Kristen said...

You also got to make me cry again! Thanks for sharing these thoughts - I think you're amazing - no wonder Heavenly Father trusted you with such a special experience!

Jacqueline said...

You have me in tears! How sweet of a testimony!You truly are blessed!!

Andi said...

Oh, Tiffany, I have been praying so hard that you would have some of these feelings and insights. You are such a treasure!

Kim said...

You're such a sweetheart. I love your attitude.

Holly said...

You are so right.

Jennifer Rose said...

Love you Tiffany.

Celia said...

She was a sweet, precious gift! May God grant you even sweeter blessings!

Stephanie said...

Count the blessings not the tears. that is so true we need to focus on the positive things.

Krystal said...

So sorry for your loss. Emma is an angel, your story has touched my heart even though I've never had to go through the issues you have. I wish you much love and strong spirits for you and your family. You older boys are adorable by the way and look like two little perfect blessings. Emma has the best mommy on earth! :)

SHILLIG4FAMILY said...

what a sweet and precious outlook you are able to have, love you